{"id":4727,"date":"2014-09-02T11:37:00","date_gmt":"2014-09-02T15:37:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/say.org\/?p=4727"},"modified":"2026-07-20T13:36:22","modified_gmt":"2026-07-20T17:36:22","slug":"i-was-hurting-inside","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/say.org\/?p=4727","title":{"rendered":"I was hurting inside by Matthew Hobbs"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Matthew Hobbs \u2013 <\/strong>
I started stuttering around age 5, that I can remember. I\u2019ve been to doctors that have said \u201cI would be held back in school\u201d. I have teachers talking behind my back when they think I won\u2019t hear them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I thought my stutter was more of a curse then a gift.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Day by day, I was hurting inside but I never wanted my parents or friends to know I was hurting. I thought they all have to much in there life right now for this, so I kept it in.\u2028\u2028This next part I have never told anyone besides two of my friends\u2026\u2028\u2028In middle school, I was being teased a little bit more and like always I kept it in not showing my emotions to people. One day I got teased like crazy, I was just having it anymore so that night I was in my room crying, cursing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I almost ended it all that night, but I couldn’t because of my friend Morgan I don’t know why but I couldn’t get her out of my head. She saved my life.\u2028\u2028<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Through high school is when I started standing up for my self. I never got in a fight or never will. I realized that I don\u2019t care what other people think of how I talk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This is me and this who I am. I\u2019m going to change for no one but myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Thank you to SAY for showing me and tell me that stuttering isn\u2019t a curse it\u2019s a gift.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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